Day 2

To the people who accidentally stumbled across my blog, all 17 of you, I want to explain my sign off as it may come across as ungrateful. The point of this blog, if it has one, is for me to overcome my fear of people reading my writing so it's meant to be me expressing my true feelings and facing them simultaneously (I really like that word).

This morning I am up, downtown, studying, and drinking coffee (albeit decaf). I've never really thought of myself as a morning person as when I was growing up, sleep was a precious commodity that greedily ate away the morning hours. Since becoming an adult and/or going to college, I've had to realize that mornings are something that I cannot afford to waste. Do I still have my days where I sleep until 2 p.m.? Absolutely, but they usually come after extremely rare all nighters or during the flu.

Don't take this to mean that I happily bounce out of bed when my alarm goes off, more that I hate it a little less because I understand its purpose is not to end my beautiful dreams and get blankets thrown over it to muffle its horrid siren call. I've forced myself to enroll in a gauntlet of 8 a.m. courses so that while I'm cursing the sunless cold morning on my way to class, I'm finished with school and awake for a full day ahead of me.

It's a good trick to feeling productive, because I correlate staying in bed past 9 a.m. as the utmost lazy act I can commit, and that's just how my day starts. Being able to tell people you've been up since 8 a.m. (even if it was 8:59) it just sounds better, and yes I use how long I've been up as a brag. I think it sounds impressive, productive even and I want people to be impressed by how early I got up and feel like they've wasted hours of their life sleeping while I bettered myself. All lies, but I like to think getting up early makes me a better person than most.

Everyone seems to have their own definition of what it means to be a morning person. Some people say that they're a morning person because they can wake up and enjoy the morning, others think they're a morning person because they can wake up without the shock of caffeine to their system. I would say I'm a morning person because I cherish mornings. It's the most peaceful time of my day and since I have to be up early anyways, I get to see the sunrise most mornings and I find sunrises infinitely more beautiful than sunsets. My reasoning is because sunrises are for the few, its a small gift from the sun congratulating you on being up and you know you're only sharing it with a minority of the human populace which makes it a little more special.

Those are my thoughts on this cold, snowy morning.

Thank you for not reading.