Why is Music So Hard?

The sunlight creeping across the floor reminds me that I should be working. 

But first, music.

Like any project, it needs the music to compliment it. The problem with this is I've never been very good at music. Not good at playing it, not good at listening to it.

Music is emotions incarnate, it can amplify what we are feeling at the moment immeasurably. But a song that one time meant everything now may not pull the same trigger of emotional release, it becomes flat or is doomed to be the wrong song.

There's this insatiable need to always, always be listening and discovering music. The new sound is a cross between hiphop/folk/punk/rock/metal and its like nothing you've ever heard before, or so everyone wants to tell you.

But the right songs just happen. There are popular songs that seem to be everything for their 15 minutes of fame, but then after are simply replaced by the same recycled notes and themes to define the new tomorrow. 

I always want the music to perfectly match my mood. The difficulty is finding out first what mood I'm in and then second, what music actually fits that. Often, I want music to change my mood so I listen to upbeat music when I'm most definitely not feeling it, which perpetuates annoyance with music for not doing its job.

Maybe I'm just what's difficult.