I set unrealistic goals and deadlines constantly.
Like tonight, realizing I have only 10 minutes to post while it's still technically "today."
This blog is supposed to serve as an ice breaker of sorts, if I have nothing to say then I may as well get the nothing out of the way to make room for the something I have been mulling over.
Today's nothing? Goals. I love them, I'm always setting them and day dreaming about their fruition. And then day two, I forget that I even set one. This constant amnesia or ebb and flow of dedication and determination leaves me paving the first step of my road to success and then trying to follow it, constantly frustrated at the fact that dreams don't build themselves.
I think a lot of the problem is that I set too many goals too fast and I get so focused on the end result the day to day effort in between is heartbreakingly disappointing and utterly shatters the dream.
I always want to be the best version of myself, but often I think that version won't emerge after so many classes, workouts, job interviews. That person I want to be is not and cannot be me. I need to look realistically at what I can do and be.
I'm not saying forget dreams, I'm working on realizing that dreams are the rough draft to get things started, and living everyday life like its an important part of the process instead of a hindrance would make being who I am now easier.
Forgive the cliches and contradictions, these are relatively unfiltered and unedited.
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